=寻找幸福记录=

let's move on

2011-08-03T02:37:00.001+08:00

Let's move on...

http://simplyzpure.tumblr.com/

I have too many wishes..

2011-04-19T00:56:00.002+08:00

Seriously,

I have too many cravings...

Taiwan trip itself will cost me a bomb,

& now,

I want

a new camera

to go phuket, bangkok

lash extension

dying my hair

cut my fridge

goes thai massage

go do some care for my nails...

oops...

too many....

pay is still not here yet =(

long time never blog...

2011-03-26T18:44:00.002+08:00

Life still the same..

Just that I am now taking my degree;

I wonder when my NM send me to further study...

hai~

anyway,

I think I will have to credit this contact lens dealer...

she is damn nice & the lens she supply is damn choi!!

Feel free to take a look.

http://purple-lens.blogspot.com/

halloween

2010-11-01T01:06:00.001+08:00

Happy halloween!

Have a great scare at night safari but hate the waiting time!

hair management

2010-09-30T06:33:00.001+08:00

A way to get rid of messy bangs..mauahha

I miss you bb

2010-09-21T00:48:00.002+08:00

I miss you..bb

After being hugged by you in sleep for last two night

When you helped me carry my super heavy medical surgical book and lappy

When you helped me carry your table to your room for my to study

when you looked at me silently as I rushed through my assignment

when I become so panic because I cannot hand in my assignment and you took your mobile modem and just solve the problem in patience

Bb, I miss you...

Hmm, should I cut my fridge??

la trobe

2010-09-02T00:35:00.003+08:00

Finally started my degree course.
Stress?
Of course!
Adult teaching which means you have to be more hardworking.
So far, I really feel damn sian about about it because I realize alot of things I don't even know.
No wonder, they say it's better you went for advanced dip before you go degree.
But sister don't want to send :x
How sia?
Friday assessment but I just don't feel like revising.
SUCKS BIG time.
~
Happy anniversary to my beloved B!
8 months being together with Love, tears, sweats...
See you in Bali.
~
Work is no better than before.
It seem like working everyday.
Feel so breathless...
Everyday seeing the demanding patient will makes you die faster.
It's not that being demanding is no good.
But do consider those who came in even earlier before you.
The way you rush us won't make better anyway.

busy

2010-07-20T12:50:00.001+08:00

Busy...no time to blog, catch me in twitter instead.
http://twitter.com/xroyalclownz

lao sai

2010-06-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

I am tire.

Killing brain cells by brainstorming is more tiring than nursing a patient.

& my xiao hong mei mei also come...

To add salt to wound,

I was suffering from diarrhea...

But I am glad that I have you to hug me.

Thanks!

luv

2010-06-07T00:44:00.000+08:00

He is simply so sweet!
Specially went to toa payoh to buy KOI for me.
Helps me massage my tire feets.
Wait for me until 10pm because I fell asleep just to have dinenr with me!
<3

4 months

2010-05-02T01:07:00.002+08:00

Today marked the 4 months anniversary of us!

I am glad to have you in my life.

- Jack says:

dear miss joy

i miss you

Suppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrr sweettttttttttttt!!!

Anyway,

I realized I love to shit after a super full meal.

Of course the toilet has to be clean.

& sometimes I love examine my shit.

muahaha

some thoughs

2010-04-30T02:43:00.003+08:00

Brother...my only brother, has gone to serve the national for coming five days.I wonder how is he now?Turn more muscular?Able to cope with trainning?Able to sleep without air-con?
Planned to go bali next week but was cancelled due to bills...but there will be a next time...
I miss my bb...was happy to hear his voice everyday.
Tomorrow?hopefully is a good good day

it's been a long time...

2010-04-26T17:10:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time since I last blogged.

Went to hongkong recently with BB zai.Not really that enjoying because we lose money and were living like poor at there.

I had cut down clubbing because bb zai don't like and will get super anxious when I go clubbing even he says he will still let me go because I likes to club

Yesterday, I saw momoren at bus stop with his girlfriend.I just take a seat and pretend I never see him.It's not nice to go up and say hi since her girlfriend is around and pretend nothing happen before.Although it is past and I have BB, but I think I shouldn't make both of us such embarrassed since we don't even contact each other.

Today, just back from sending my brother to tekong.It has been a long time since my family go out together as one big whole.

I am so tire now...need to doze off...night shift..

I am so tire!

2010-03-15T16:51:00.002+08:00

Last night I slept at 10 plus and this morning after back home at 7 plus, I slept all the way till 1.30pm!

This is the second time...I have slept until so relax.Hopefully after moving to yishun, I will get better!
Last but not least, introducing that toy dog!

my baby

2010-03-10T03:29:00.002+08:00

I love the way you cuddle me.

I love the way you slowly tuck into the blanket and lie beside me carefully, fearing that will wake me up.

Yes, I am missing you.Can you feel that?

1 month + 22 days

2010-02-22T02:34:00.002+08:00

It's like looking at a bud slowly grows...

1st, the root & then the leaf...

How I wish...

I can see flowers grow...

like how sakura open confidently in spring.

& so the fruits...

like those farmers in the rice plots cutting their harvest.

Thanks for the everything.

Though arguments do arise,

but it just strengthen the small little plant, which acts as a fertilizer.

I am forgetful but I do remember your sincerity & loves.

the year of tiger

2010-02-14T00:12:00.002+08:00

Well, back at home.

Hopefully the presents will brighten up your day!

Anyway, happy CNY and V-day.

To my da lian,

actually, you deserve a better guy who dote you more! xp

Luckily, you haven't give him the present!

Break up do sad but I know you are a strong girl!

Don't worry, xiao lian will lend a shoulder if you want!

P.S How come I keep burping?

twitter

2010-02-04T01:26:00.001+08:00

You can now add me in twitter!

My pet cat

2010-02-03T11:21:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to Kat lin!
You are older by one...once again!
xp

my sweetest revenge

2010-01-20T13:39:00.002+08:00

My sweetest revenge is to live better than in past.
& proven;
with happy stamp on it.
I really love when you walked me home, holding my hands.
Though we joked all the way,
serious all the way sometimes.
I felt that moment is the best.

sighs

2010-01-12T11:24:00.000+08:00

Does my past bothers you alot?
I can't change it.
If I have to die now, I think I don't have much regrets.
Maybe one or two...but not much.
Because all these past memories strengthen me to be a stronger person.

xp

2010-01-11T03:04:00.003+08:00

Thanks for comforting a uneasy soul.
Yes, I am scare.
I am scare you will leave me.
I thought the last sentence has established...but it hasn't.
Pardon me, to be so fearful even though I didn't show.
Is not that I don't want to be with you but I always has a feeling I am just an extra that popped up from somewhere in this small tiny dot on earth.
My mindset is telling me I don't deserve any happiness.
I fear even if I snatch, you will leave me, brutally hurt internally.
I cannot accept anymore.
My heart cannot take it.
I will admit for depression.
I cannot sleep alone at night.
I will fear of love.
I will not like boy boy anymore.
***
I can empathy how you feels when you call me.
I feel bad...to cause such misfortune on you.
Should I leave?
I ask myself.
But why should I be so selfish to you & me?
You say you want to be single.
I don't mind.
SERIOUSLY.
Boyfriend, girlfriend is just a staus.
If I have a status but I don't deserve what a girlfriend have, will I be happy?
After all, I don't even expect anything from you.
But you really dote me.
The moment I went inside to change back my clothes and I heard the sound of the cash register, I know you bought the top.
Isn't it sweet enough to melt my heart away?
& the time you spend on just waiting for me to do my hair, buy food and drink while I nearly fell asleep while doing my hair.
& fufil the mission to stop my craving for my xiao long bao.
Most importantly,
those words I told you in your ears with a promise seal at night
all these are enough to drive me to make you happy.
***
B, thanks for the everything.
You are the best gift from somewhere up there in 2010

bitch, am I?

2010-01-06T15:51:00.003+08:00

Why do I feel abit relief when he told me that he already confessed to his girlfriend that he had already fall in love with another girl?
I am worried about him but my heart just feel so happy about it...
Sometimes, I just feel that I am such a bitch...
Oh my god!
Shall face the wall and repent on own mistakes...

<3

2010-01-04T14:02:00.002+08:00

I am contented.
To be with you... in the dark.
I believe what you say...because you haven't lie to me at all.
Even as a friend,
I don't mind.
Because it's hard to be with someone you love and he loves you, cherishes you every moment, every second.

getting my nerves!

2009-12-30T03:13:00.002+08:00

You said you want to woo me.
But you don't message, call me.
Is not that I wanted you to sms me every second, every minute what you did.
But, when you are free,
just drop me a missing me message will brighten my day.
But...what can I do?
I consult my guy friend.
He said this too.
Not putting high hopes but still fear of disappointment.
Don't like people to lie or cheat me.
*******************************
What's the most memorable stuff in 2009?
To meet that guy that I fall deeply into.
Even we are not together.
I will still want you to be good even without me.

=)

2009-12-28T04:09:00.001+08:00

Feeling so happy that you said you are not interested in other girls after meeting me.
But will it last?
But...I am happy...so who cares will it last...

a fast recovery or a short distraction?

2009-12-27T18:46:00.004+08:00

Today, I just feel so much better.
I don't miss my monster so much as yesterday.Even there is, I am no longer feeling sad.
Maybe it's an enlightenment after being console by my smoking khaki.
I was analying why it turn out like that.
One conclusion is
because that day when I really break down, I told you that you are not the first person that I want to see immediately.
Eventually, it lead to lose of confident, trust...which is so much so much needed in a relationship.
I believe that day when you say you wanted to woo me is real.
I believe...because if you are not, you won't message me to prove how important I am to you(at that point of time) when I said give up on me, stop fooling me.
The paper heart you gave to me is still in my chanel wallet.
Well, the most ugly heart I received but seem like it's the more precious.
Anyway,
I prefer to be that 傻傻的默默靜靜地想念某某人。
Even if he has a girlfriend, but I still want to miss him because he is the one that I loves the most.
Monster is like the pirated version of him.
某某人's birthday is june 9th and his on june 7th.
Both of them know how to style.(The most important thing that I am so crazy about).
Both of them has sense of humour.
Both of them are like big flirt.
Both of them called me baby.
Both of them have thick thick eyebrow.
Both of them do not start a relationship with me.
Both of them first saw me is like out of the sudden.
But monster is much more skinny.
Monster has tattoo.
Monster is more hairy.
Monster smoke winston.
Monster is from melayu country.
某某人,
didn't mind I have boyfriend.
always talked to me until wee hours.
smoke marlbolo medium.
always piggyback me from his voiddeck to his house.
look most sexy in his singlet.
way of waking up me is so heart-warming.
didn't mind about my past.
his zara cardi is the most comfortable.
will let me sit on his lap while he use his computer and I just stare and admire him.
Hmm...
actually, I don't hate both of them.
Because it's 某某人 taught me how to love someone deeply even if he doesn't have a future with you.
Monster...
we are trying things out.
Maybe we are just two lonely creatures on earth that just need each other accompany.
But I do have feeling for him...
if not I won't cry for him for two nights and my eyes are so swollen.
hai~
Enough of the craps.I am a FB addict, need to use FB now.
Tomorrow I am morning shift...need to wake up the time when people finish partying.
hai~
Now, I already started to feel sleepy...but if I sleep now, I can't sleep later.
hai~

if you even bother

2009-12-26T01:55:00.003+08:00

If you bother,
you will at least call or message me once in a day.
you will not give me empty promise.
you will not push me away.

you will know this blog do exists.

you will know

I wanted to say

I miss JXXXX XXH

but you never know

because you are not putting enough effort.

你愛我太美好

2009-12-25T10:02:00.003+08:00

Last night,
I went double O.
I remember my countdown for xmas is outside O bar because I am quening to go in.
I remember I got 6 shots and 3 bombshell.
I remember I ran toward some unknown people for cigarette.
I remember out of them, got this girl whose name is strawberry pocky.
I remember I was dancing like a mad woman.
I remember I kept scolding vulgaries.
I remember I dropped my wallet, my handphone once.
I remember my talking style is super daring kind.
I remember the last person I dance with has a name call shuan.
I remember I call one of my guy friend, telling him that I am dead.
I remember I was eating ba tuk teh, drinking my favourite apple soda.
I remember I went back home with lingz and friend.
I remember I cried in the cab, thinking about that guy that I once was in love with, so deeply.
I remember the cab driver passed me tissue paper and lingz was wiping my tears.
I remember that guy, I am interested in like now, called and said he took panadol with beer.
I remember I was msn him using my phone.
I remember he said he will sms me but I falling asleep in lingz's house and nothing was there when I woke up.
I remember I need to work today.
& yes, merry xmas, I am working today.

ismail

2009-12-21T01:52:00.001+08:00

Joy

hai~~

becoz of such guys

lao niang so scare of luv

1:51amIsumairu

lol... lao niang... u dun have to be scared... just have to be extra careful...

must do homework... CSI!!!

1:52amJoy

mauhaha

thanks mail~

1:52amIsumairu

most importantly must be strong... have confidence in yourself...

dun let anyone take advantage...

It's all because of your guys' encouragment, life's so beautiful!

心情不好

2009-12-20T16:36:00.002+08:00

cough*cough*cough*
I don't know why.
I already stay at home the whole day but my dad just came back home and shaked his head.
Everything seem too good to be real.
I am scared it's just my silly thoughts.
Anyway, I am so so so happppyyy to get my chanel wallet!

I must be very very strong

2009-12-19T00:23:00.003+08:00

I shall not let emo-ness as an excuse to touch cigarette.
Why I started in the first place?
Because I want to get closer to you emotionally.
Yes, you attracted me to have the urge to smoke.
Even you left long ago.
KPP said I am very brave to love someone who no longer love me.
Jiemei said I am stupid.
But the truth is,
I really enjoy loving you, from a small position.
So, no more cigarette but ice cream and lemon slice.
I shall do housework to kill boredom.
Today I surf the net for afternoon.
Then I went to sleep.
& I woke up,
The problem still existes,
no sense of accomplishment.
Hai~~
I shall not let clubbing to be a solution to kill stress.
Clubbing should be happy but not sad as a result.
I shall excerise to kill all stress.

My extended tattoo

2009-12-18T17:15:00.002+08:00

Went to extend my tattoo in JB.Now, it's not as plain as what it is as before.
Many people asked whether is it painful.
But the real pain is not physically.
The real pain is emotionally, mentally.

只有失去的擁有最永久

2009-12-16T03:34:00.001+08:00

My heart is aching.
You can't replace him.
So ya...

為愛犯賤

2009-12-14T05:55:00.002+08:00

Have you move out of my heart?
But
Did I ever move into yours before?

shh

2009-12-11T02:40:00.001+08:00

Somehow,
I miss the feeling that someone will come and fetch me when I come back.
Muhahah...
no offence!

朋友

2009-12-10T22:01:00.001+08:00

Your hand,
consoling the insecure soul of mine.
But what I need is not your sympathay,
Don't make me misunderstand...

想念某某人

2009-12-05T07:00:00.004+08:00

These few days...
when I woke up from nap;
especially in the late night,
I will miss you madly.

你幸福嗎？
幸福的話，我不介意在長長夜里一個人靜靜地想你。

I am not hungry at all

2009-12-03T05:11:00.004+08:00

Meant to find food with some idiots but was put plane.
& all thanks to him,
I was fasted ever since my mac breakfast at 7am.
Seriously,
I am not hungry at all.
I also have no mood for food now.

screwed

2009-12-02T23:26:00.002+08:00

You really screwed my day.
Loving you can be so sweet & yet so bitter.
Once, I told myself...
you are not worth for me to love...
but speaking is always easier than actions.
You don't care, why should I be piss about?
When will I totally give up on you?
Seeing you,
Nervous,
super +++
But I have to be normal in front of you.
You know my uneasiness but you can't do anything now.
Or you don't even bother at all..

crying like a baby...

2009-12-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

You don't have to appear to remind me how much I love you.
Your appearance make me tachycardiac,
my fingers shivering...
&
the tears don't stop...

But you give me the courage to let sheer bliss go.

&
as usual,
you are not there for me.

Glen, you don't need to feel guilty, I don't need anything from either.I must abide the rules of love games.
& especially thanks to my smoking khaki,
even your remarks are super sacratic,
I have a great laugh...

fever

2009-12-01T02:54:00.000+08:00

Down with fever;
feel like the world is crashing....

misses..

2009-11-26T16:21:00.001+08:00

misses the art of kissing...

there's such a saying

2009-11-23T03:40:00.002+08:00

Don't know hear from where...
"Friends admire my freedom yet, they returned back to their comfort zone at night".
Well,
as what I mention;
freedom does fun but there's a price to pay.

什麽東東嗎！

2009-11-22T02:55:00.003+08:00

什麽東東嗎？！
我到底算什麽？
他媽的！
一群腦袋裝大便的臭男人！
*************************
was chatting with annie few nights ago...
agreed this saying,
"no matter how much disagreements between each other, be a pillar when he/she needs you as a friend"
but normally, reality don't reflect what it says.
******************************************
It's tiring to report work after dancing 5 hours non-stop.
& I am kinda of look upon myself that I can stand it...for going clubbing after afternoon shift and went straight to work after club.

eat alot...

2009-11-18T03:20:00.001+08:00

Woke up after 12 hours of sleep.
Ate waraku set meal, which consist of 1 soup, 1 ice tea, 1 pasta, 1 baked rice.
Then head down to changing appeptite to have waffles.
Went to jello to drink whisky.
Then had bak tuk teh for supper.
What a great mission then!
mauhah

fool

2009-11-14T03:28:00.002+08:00

I am fool.

I betrayed my motto.

"rather be a fool than leading an unhappy life"

*****

****

***

I just push a very good guy, who promise me to love me like god, out of my life.

要是sorry能讓你不難過

2009-11-10T02:04:00.002+08:00

要是sorry能讓你不難過

I really wish to say until my voice cannot come out from my mouth.

Is not that you are not good enough,

but,

...

the sheer bliss you given me,

made me even guilty to face you.

2009-11-03T01:41:00.002+08:00

u wait ah
i think how to tell u first
haha
wait ah
ok
i dont know how to put this thru the appropriate way
but i see ur fb n everything
i find that u have alot of frens
n uve been like clubbing n it's always clubbing fotos i always see
i nvr say it's wrong to club
but the thing is that
hmm
hw to put it
i seldom meet u
cuz maybe sometimes we both busy
im still abit pissed that u put aeroplane the last time we intended to meet up
n u met up with eddy instead
i know there's a certain reason behind that
but u know what?
i find myself not knowing u so well after all
u seemed so far away..
not the old xz i know already
i have no confidence to say that i know u anymore
i feel u are drifting away from me already
i feel that ur clubbing frens now are more impt then me..
i duno what my placement is in ur heart..
but to me
u r a very important fren
someone that's with me thru sec sch... sharing ups n downs tgt..
but now..
when u have troubles.. u dun approach me anymore
i feel ur frens out there know u better den i do..
i mean i know it's not neccesary dat i need to know EVERYTHING that u do..
but it seems i know nothing about u now..
rly nothing..
i dont know who u are. what u are doing anymore...
im sad..
i know u are feeling emo..
but the thing is
i dont know how i can help u..
because i dont know u well now...
i feel helpless...
u understand what im trying to put thru here?
im not blaming u or anything.. it's just that..
maybe someth or somewhat.. situations happened that cause this kind of things to happen
dat we r drifting apart or someth
the point im putting thru is, i wanna be someone useful to u
someone that u can have a support on whenever u are down..

but i dont find myself that useful anymore, becuz frens out there have been ur pillar of support rather than i am

bcuz if u rly wanna tell me U WILL TELL
thats becuz u dun feel like telling me
thats why u didnt
u know we have no truth to hide between us
u jolly well know that
but i understand why sometimes
there's always secrets that we will hide, so i nvr blame u at all
im jus voicing out
becuz everytime i see u emo, i feel like crying
n i dun dare to ask
becuz im scared u wudnt wanna tell m

*******
My BFF's confession.
Touched until I felt my cheeks are wet..
Thanks,
I love you!
Seriously,
I am sad because I care...

=(

2009-11-03T01:09:00.001+08:00

Today is a raining day.
The weather is cold.
It has made both my feets and hands cold...
&
my heart is also being injected with a syringe of mint...

不被重視

2009-10-27T23:49:00.002+08:00

要是
一個人总覺得自己是多餘的，
那么
他在這個家的地位是什么？
。。。
我真的很難相處嗎？
只是不懂得表達吧了。
。。。
我不喜歡
每個人把我當成
“什麽都可以”
對，
什麽都可以。。。但“什麽都可以”也會有極限。
我不喜歡去吵，
因爲最後還不是要有結果，
那我就聼你要的是什麽。
。。。
你們的話
就像利刀
狠狠地刺。。。
笨蛋
自私
沒腦
汎濫的人生
我的決定
永遠都是錯的
那么不如少說不是更好。
。。。
在我被別的事
傷害時，
爲什麽
我聽到的
不是安慰
而是冷嘲热讽。
。。。
有時我真的覺得
跟朋友，愛人在一起
還比較被重視。
不是說完全不好，
只不過，
有的時候，
我不想
背負著
“什麽都是我的錯”。

some sort of emo...

2009-10-26T02:48:00.004+08:00

Sort of emo...

Feeling like drifting apart from lots of friend...

Maybe is part of life...

Sometimes, I was really thinking;

did my existance irriated some fellow people out there?

Why am I having such thoughts?

Aiya,

I was surfing FB and I came across some secondary friends' birthday.

Sad to say,

I was not invited.

But it's ok, because I am not really close to them.

I wondered is it because I am jealous of them that made me feel bit sad to see them celebrating happily...

Crazy girl, am I?Muhahha...

Not sad but a bit distracted..

Ok, to cheer myself,

I shall tell myself...

"Thanks, god! I am not close to them because I didn't need to pay much attention if they need help..."

I don 't know why...sometimes I think I am damn selfish...because I only sensitve to what concern me but not others.

But my intention is always a happy ending but it end up I only concern about me.

After watching 500 days of summer,

alot of random thoughts really passed through.

Why I say I was like the female role is because...

I behave inimated with someone before but eventually turn sour after disrupts,agruements...

I told him to wait for me 3 months...

When he woo me that time, sweet words came and the feeling is sort of lovely.

After sometimes, he behaved very werid.

He ignored my messages, my calls...it is very insecure.

I asked myself, I give my best yet he mistreat it.

What you treat me as?Some dog that you want me I will be there?

After pondering very hard, I raised the white flag.

But I got put in feeling in it...in every relationship I have, even a fling when I told him I love him.

And it's not even the 3 months, I got another new boyfriend.

That guy, messaged me one night..which I can't remember any single message...But I can sense he's bit sad.

Ok, what I was trying to say...

Maybe he just cannot give the feeling to actually made me really 100% want him.

Just like how summer treat tom in the movie.

And I was thinking about this funny feeling when listening to 丁噹's你為什麼說謊.

I can sense, he blame me for using him...

but..

你不能說我沒有愛過說我沒等過難過

我也想說也許能重來我卻還是沉默

你一直問我的心到底在不在問我怎能不遺憾就丟失愛

而我的淚怎麼就流下來

2009-10-23T03:54:00.004+08:00

Recently just watch 500 days of summer.

It' s so hilarious!
But my slave said he fell asleep because he's too tire ;(
EXCUSE!
Mauhaha
Anyway...
Maybe summer is my split image...
I don't know...
Maybe only...
In some ways...
Or I am the combination of both?
And I went to dye my hair, rebond my left sided hair and eyebrow embroidery.
No more pudding hair!
No more no-tail eyebrow!
Going to get a eyeliner embroidery soon...
After I paid my $200++ phone bill...

filled with joy

2009-10-14T14:23:00.000+08:00

Sweet talk...
is so funny to come out from you.

謝謝

2009-10-08T08:11:00.002+08:00

因爲有你在我身邊，
才顯得我的不同。
快快回來，讓我靠靠你的肩膀！

yoz!

2009-10-08T05:17:00.001+08:00

Back from clubbing...
Actually,
don't need to worry about me...
because I am dancing the alcohol away..
I am clear of what I am doing...
And when I say I am awake,
I really mean that!

一切太快，讓人擔心

2009-10-01T03:39:00.004+08:00

White roses for me.
Represents
I miss you.
You are heavenly.

We know each other less than 2 weeks now.
But, everything seem too fast.
The way you treat me,
somehow makes me worries.
Maybe, I am being hurt that badly subconsciously that I some sort of scare...fear of being started and being left behind.
The things you did, I know, I can see...
You rather talk to me than talking to your friends.
You brought me to mac, just because CP wanton is out of stock and your friend just asked whether you want any mac.
You kept asking me to drink honey due to my cough.
You will give me virtual kisses to show how much you miss me.
You will be there earlier than me, just because you know I don't like to wait.
You will help me put on the jacket when I am cold.
You will be there when I say I want to.
You will eat those things you don't like if I demanded you to eat.
You will change your tone just because I don't like your high pitch.
You try to talk to me in English because I say you sound better in English.
You try not to wear your glasses because I say you look more nicer without it.
You cut your hair because I say it's messy even though you going to NS soon.
You admit all under your faults because of me.
You tried your best to send me home each time.
You will wait for me until I am want to sleep; give you a good night call before you can sleep.
You fetch me to airport just because we will be separated for 4 days.
You bring "I miss you" to airport to surprise me; and I only mention once, I loves white roses.
You bought "you are heavenly" today because we walk pass the florist.Don't spend too much on flower ok...but I felt like a little princess with you around.
&
you know what you touch me badly?
That day I call you and you wait for me under block to put me on the jacket.
You piggyback that drunken me all the way home.

But,
I cannot accept you yet.
I am scare...
scare that I still cannot forget him.
scare that a new hope brings a new disappointment.
Seriously, I really lose faith in love.
If you can wait, you wait...if not, forget it.

Thanks for the everything you did, Kelvin Tan B. H.!

I don't want to go back to work!

2009-09-29T20:10:00.002+08:00

4 days 3 night...
& I am now back in Sg!
Starting work on thur...& I am missing all those cute dresses in BKK!
& back to Sg, I need to face the $300 bills!
Giddy ZzzZzz!
Anyway, it's a great trip!Thanks to those ward 7 girls!

wait...

2009-09-23T02:47:00.004+08:00

How long can a person wait for his love ones?
When you say you will wait,
I truly wonder;
will you still wait if I will be together with another guy...

I am a lucky star

2009-09-16T19:35:00.003+08:00

I am the lucky one.
I can feel,
I can see,
I can taste,
I can hear,
I can smell,
I can walk,
I can sing...
What's more I need ?
When I die, I will go as usual.
No love is ok...just a bit lonely.
No hugs hugs...
But I am really delight of what I have now.
很多人想像我那麽平凡都不行，我還夫复何求？

思戀

2009-09-14T00:19:00.004+08:00

I was thinking just now...
Will I go back to him if he ever turn back to me?
The answer is no I suppose...
The reason is very simple.
Ever hear my theory of how husband betary wife?
If ever,
I found my husband sleep with a whore,
I don't mind.
But he go outside find a lover,
I will divorce with him.
So same here,
I will not go back to him anymore..
for now..
Because he has developed feelings for another girl.
You will did it again once you did it.
so ya...
Loving someone and being together with someone is different.
Loving someone can be hidden but being together with someone needs courage.
In the first place, he already don't have the courage to give me a title so I have to believe we are just being lonely, accompany for each other.

red carpet night

2009-09-13T17:13:00.001+08:00

AH dinner & dance.
At first, I thought it will be super boring.
But it turned out to be so fun!
I really enjoy myself...
Photo taking and laughter filled the whole night.
After that, I went clubbing with x-ray ashley.
Because ismail is drunk!
And got korean guys asked whether can dance with us...so funny!

你知道嗎？
在長長夜里，最想念的是你的抱抱。
那份藏匿的溫柔能夠撫平一個不安的心。

hai~~

2009-09-12T02:32:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't hai hai now.
But
Tell you the truth,
I don't like to show people how weak I am.
So,
most of them my facial expression is
=)
But sometimes,
I really feel like resting somewhere.
Sorry to call up and disturb...
I also don't want but friday at home is really bore.
Ok ok...
be strong,
to let those idiots taste my poisons...

coco before chanel

2009-09-11T20:37:00.002+08:00

Finally watched it!
The front is a bit dry...
But the most touching part is her love with Arthur 'Boy' Capel...
What is the longest distance in world?
Unable to be with your love ones.
At least,
he don't love me.
So,
nothing to regret about.
Continue letting my soul goes travelling,
to appreciate how beautiful life it is.

收到你的信已經太遲

2009-09-11T02:57:00.002+08:00

I finally finished amy chueng's 收到你的信已經太遲.

Is like,

since I can't physically go for tour...

then let my mind, my soul be.

Love the story...

It's a happy ending anyway.

I liked happy ending.

I loved her novels because she can makes strangers related to each other.

After reading this novel,

I felt happy that I am single.

As free as a bird...can miss whoever I want to.

Sad thing is nobody message so...I am waiting for my BFF to do that...

He said he will..

Actually,

I am someone who believe in people easily.

So don't promise me anything.

Just like the first love in the story how he promise her but broken the promise...

BUT...

She found a better guy...

Miss him now...we parted in the 長夜...& I miss him in this 長長夜...

Shh...

Don't let him know...

He will be happy...or maybe a little annoy...

muahahah

shh

2009-09-08T05:44:00.002+08:00

I have a gossiping session with my colleague =)

She told me

jealous= insecure

Ok,

I shall heed her advice

not to look at his profile anymore.

Thanks for your encouragement...

I feel so pretty right now.

I feel so thin right now.

It's his loss to lose me and it's not mine!

Muhahaha

I will wish you all the best

2009-09-08T04:07:00.004+08:00

I don't know...

My heart is having a sharp pain,

like someone has use a knife stabbing it continously.

It's jealous...

So awful.

Damn it.

Do I love him?

Yes...but that's the past because I told myself to let go the day he left me, heartbroken.

Maybe...I already know what is

"I love you so I love you enough to let you go"

Since I never ever made him happy at all.

He is not meant for me,

why should I occupy him and waste my time?

The only thing I am sad now is

为什么永远要往前走

却不断回头

#885

2009-09-07T02:47:00.000+08:00

Today my longest ex called me.
So stunned that I don't even know how to react.
Well, someone actually read my blog...I got fan...can sing lady gaga's paparazzi!
Anyway...I was really stunned that my reply is mono-type.
Closed ended question.
Muhaha...

love slave

2009-09-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

I saw his profile...he had a girlfriend...oh gosh!
Joy arh joy,
don't cry, I am warning you not to shed a single for someone who don't love you.
Joy arh joy,
don't get angry, for once, be graceful and wish them all the best.
Joy arh joy,
don't get too upset... at least, for now on, someone will continue your burden in your heart.
Joy arh joy,
love yourself more as friends are around you to see in your best!
Joy arh joy,
pull up your sock, the world won't collaspe just because he don't love you.
Joy arh joy,
breath in and out...cool down, tachycardiac won't do good to your body.
Joy arh joy,
you belong to yourself, him too.You owe him and neither him.
Joy arh joy,
I know you are sad...not happy...but do you think it is worth to be in such mood for such a jerk?
Joy arh joy,
stop lying and daydreaming.The truth has shown...he don't give a bloody damn to you.
Joy arh joy,
do you think he will be guilty for what you are in now?The answer is no, he will be laughing at your foolishness.
Joy arh joy,
those words once that came out from his mouth is over.Grow up, don't be a love slave.
Joy arh joy,
there is lots of things for you to trobule about...field teams, cardiac team, fine stitching...move on.He doesn't belong to you.
Joy arh joy,
I know the news has spoil your day...but only today...not the future.
Joy arh joy,
no wonder how hard is your fists is, the truth is the truth!
Joy arh joy,
you will get better and better.You upset now but on the hand, he maybe hugging someone blissfully.
Joy arh joy,
throw out all your vulgarities...I will know you want to...

BE STRONG! =) HAPPINESS IS AT YOUR SIDE...NOT WITH HIM!

life's a rollercoaster

2009-09-03T01:46:00.000+08:00

Tell you something...
I never message him for 2 two days...
Neither did him.
I always wonder,will a guy think of me when I left...
I don't think "dear" will...
And also 2 days never tear...
Will you guys happy for me?

某某人 is the same.I message him, but he never reply.

Life shouldn't have regret, because I once love him so much.
Giving all my best for my love ones.
Please don't hate me, for once, I say I love you means I really do.

Someone say I am too serious for love.
She said too serious is not a bad thing, but not putting yourself 100% jump into the pit...

I don't mind jumping into the pit...but I scare I can't climb out if you left me.

I am not someone who know how to fake emotion...my emotions, most of the time, is written all over my face.
I think that's why people who is with me is very stress up...I can get upset for little stuffs.
But isn't my honest characterist that attracts you?

希望成空；眼變失望。

2009-08-31T02:40:00.001+08:00

It's day 2.
Last night, I cry in my sleep.
I really can't control myself and bran said my eyes were swollen after crying.
Today...another not happy day.
Work is wrecked.
I asked myself, why my life is so down?
Am I not that hardworking enough?
No longer "moring baby" but a message to beg my forgiveness and returning freedom.
Thanks to my BFF, lim yee joo, lending her listening ear...
You are important in my life.You played different roles in my different stages of my life.You are never being an extra but me.muahhaha
And also ismail, the 1st to I reveal the truth, & people who show your tender loving care!
Of course, crying didn't stop by day 2.
But life still goes on, earth still spinned.
What can I do to heal my broken heart?
Let me vent!
Let me scream at the top of my lungs!
Let me run using my fastest spreed!
Let me dance like a melody!
Let me do what I want...& lend me a shoulder to cry on now.
希望成空；眼變失望

cry

2009-08-30T01:08:00.003+08:00

I broke up with Dear...
He initated it,
because he don't want have time for me...
He don't want to see me sad because he has no time for me.
I understand,
but break up tend to be sad.
So,
allow me to sad ok?

being a big fat extra

2009-08-29T11:46:00.000+08:00

Very, very long never been a big fat extra...last night I am back to a extra role.
Anyway I have fun with sister of friend's friend at the stage.I never knew I am that nuts...m&m peanuts do make people nuts.
How's the feeling of drinking 2 flaming lambo?
Totally high but I just wanted to get myself drunk last night.
Love, work just fall out...very stress...I hate to use stress because I think this is just a small part of life, bigger stress yet to come.
Back to extra role,
They ordered drinks while I myself go and deposit my bags.
When I am back, they already the drinks.
They asked me to Q for drinks, saying will accompany me to Q...but ended up all in toilet.
When they came out from toilet, they went for their drinks and went to dance floor.
And all I did was, Q and drink...next dance like some mad woman.
Luckily, my da lian is at dfly...or esle I really don't know where to go when one whole bunch of them left me.
Life, how many regrets is needed to complete it?
To be honest, my biggest regret is the one I left for my 2 year relationship.
Whenever I am damn stress up, I will think of him.
But, I never call him last night!
His exsistance is like my shadow...hide under the dark.
His memory is a spike...that pierce my heart.
I don't love him as I said but...he has become a regret in my life.
And I break down in cab...my sorrow, nobody bothers...no one cares...
That's extra...and here am I to fill you up.
See, being an extra is good.
Everyone knows you...whenever they need to fill up the space, I am here.
An extra always have a good listening ear.
An extra always have a comfortable shoulder to lean.
An extra will always think she's very important.
An extra won't die so easily...because if she dies, no one will light up your life...
Muhahahaha

not happy lah

2009-08-21T02:03:00.008+08:00

Today is not my day.

I mean 20 08 2009.
I miss one bus stop today. It's not because I overslept or what.But it's the bus driver never see me.I kept pressing the bell but he just kept driving.And so, I alight at ABC market...walking all my way back to AH.
And I got scolding from a crazy customer.And this collague of mine just could not stand by my side but kept insisting I did wrong.I admit partly I am in the wrong but that GY asshole should not show attitude to me as I didn't do anything to provoke him.He's angry but I am not the one he can vexed all his anger at.And I deserve a apology from him...after getting all his anger & get my day sucks!
I don't know why...people just loves to sterotype.
I admit sometimes I do;
but
at least
I try to listen(if only I am cool down)
before I jump into a conclusion.
I may be fickle minded, unable to make a descision
BUT I DO HAVE MY OWN THINKING!
*KNN GY KNS* All those vulgarities is now filled in my mind.
So emo... =(
Even best buddy, BFF, ben ben de don't want to with me.
And I really itchy ass...
made dear irriated...
He tried to console me after knowing that I had a bad day.
Asked me to sleep.
But my message just made him pissed off in the end, he just don't want to reply me anymore!
OMG!!!!!!!!
He don't want me anymore?
He don't love me anymore?
Or
he don't want me because I am really a pain...
=(
*tears at the edge of my eyes*
Sorry, dear!
Sorry!
Sorry!
3 times = very sincere, from the bottom of my heart
Dear, I know my mistakes...please don't angry with me...
please don't don't want me!
Please!
PLease!
Please!
Don't angry with me k!
Waiting for your message...but I don't to receive any disappointment...
Anyway,
looking for companions for...

蠢蛋

2009-08-18T00:58:00.003+08:00

Lao niang is in love...

but...
lao niang scare it go very fast...
this morning even worsen...
I dream he left me...
hai~~
so let's do what he said...
Low profile...
Being force to take picture
I am cam-whore...too bad...Last night he talked to lao niang till very late...very tiring...because lao niang very demanding...
I got his front view...
But I still prefer low profile...

miscommunication

2009-08-15T18:33:00.000+08:00

I was scare you did the same again.
But was so so happy when you called.
dear, I really didn't receive your message; it's time to change your phone!
Thanks for consoling a scared-soul!It did help =)

=)

2009-08-13T00:14:00.001+08:00

You made me smile...
hopefully,
this is forever...

P.S. can't wait for next week to arrive!

do you still love me?

2009-08-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

"He maybe still love you...that's why he hides away from you..."
from ben ben de's mouth
but...
that night
he message me something like this
"I really want to treat you as the important ones...but that was in the past"
so...
I never wait for him...but miss him sliently
& let him live in my memories...

sianz 1/2

2009-08-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

Just now...
I really feel so helpless that I break down.
Don't like to be sick...
sick=weak=thinking of wrong stuffs

not a good habit

2009-08-04T09:55:00.000+08:00

I tend to think about the past when I was stress up.Felt so sorry...

love

2009-08-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

Tell me,
who will you choose?
The person who you loves,
or
the person who loves you?

Both
are mistakes!
mauhaha

For someone who I really bothers alot...

2009-07-26T19:24:00.000+08:00

I don't love him anymore but I just can't help myself to stop about bother him.

We never been together;

But I admit I love him alot alot that time.

He is not 100% the cause of why I broke up with my 2 year boyfriend...

But...

He knows I have a boyfriend in the beginning

But we just have a deal

we will be with each other

when fate separated us

once

we chatted until late at night

when we can hear only people snore & silence

once

we look forward to meet each other

once

we put masks together

once

we lied on the bed, discussing our dreams

once

I sat on his thighs, watched gossip girls

once

he carried me, threatened to throw down from his house

once

he piggyback me back to his house

once

he told me he will never let me go hungry

once

we are so into Resturant city

once

he walked to AH from his house within 10 minutes

once

we kissed goodbye after meet up with his friends

once

he waited for me after work & bring me to eat steamboat

once

we went to eat ramen because I wanted it

once

he bought something I want to eat although my mouth said no

once

I comment on him about his house's chopsticks

once

he comment on my werid eating habit, eat and lie down halfway

once

he feel so happy for the gadgets I bought for him

once

I felt asleep on his thighs, feeling so blissful

once

he woke me up for work...his way is so so sweet!

once

we giggles and tickled each other in his bed

once

he called me his maid

once

I regretted to let go of him and called him the very night to want him back

once

he MIA and it become his habit

once

I was jumping happily when he sms me after he MIA

once

I wanted to see him so badly that I took 1 hour bus to find him

once

I looked at him smoking under the moolight

& I know we will never go back to where we were

once

I feel so helpless that I can't help him to solve his problem

once

I feel sad for him

once

I cried in the middle of the road because of him

once

I walked from AH to Adam road due to him

once

we promised to meet on this particular day but in the end...

once

I was utterly disappointed & I give up hopes on him...on love too

once

I wrote a diary from the day he mia to his birthday

now

I had become a habit that I will kept sms and call the person I love

now

I am scare of love

now

Guys end the relationship with me even before started with me

now

we are still friends but I can't help to stop bother about him.

After night shift

2009-07-24T01:02:00.007+08:00

My womanizer bought something for me while he is away...just simply happy...because someone remember me when he's away.

Last night went teoh's house for bonding session.
It was simply fun...took tons of photos...watch out in FB.
But,
fun is fun.
Need face reality...& went back AH today, which is my off day.
Passed TK his present; I am so nice =) but I saw him with burberry.
Of course, that's not my main motive.
My main motive is to count field team items.
Managed to count until left 7 boxes before the clock strikes 7pm.
And I am so satifised.
Because I finally got myself inked.
Out of pain score of 10, I rated it seven.
The pain is a kind of numbing, sharp pain due to the needle.
Especailly it touch the bony part.
Now, I am not in pain anymore.
Someone said tattoo is destroying the body.
But do they know what is emotional pain?
I am just trying a way to describe myself.
Different people different preception.

会痛的石头

2009-07-23T01:37:00.003+08:00

Nice lyrics

罗志祥 - 好朋友

只是不小心拥抱着 And we accidentally hugged together.
你道歉你难过 You apologised, you were sad,
于是我给你笑容 Hence I brought a smile to your face.
谁在乎我的心还会不会寂寞 Who cares if my heart is lonely?

蕭敬騰会痛的石头

跑过快红灯的路口
我们大笑着一起回头
不用刻意做些什么
两颗心就会漫出来快乐
想起来怎么像梦小的美好大的感动
是过了多少个秋冬
沦为夏天的電影只能重播怀旧
我们是两颗会痛的石头
猛烈冲撞后裂了缝
永远都不会懂什么叫认错
还想爱却调头放手
心疼你是颗会痛的石头
想要抱住你却混乱沉默
倔强的表情里闪过了失落
你的泪让我痛
我的浪漫太不及格
你猜中却还配合没说
想做支歌记录你我
写三句身旁你的眼红了
想起来怎么像梦小的美好大的感动
是过了多少个秋冬
淪為下片的電影只能重播怀旧
我们是两颗会痛的石头
猛烈冲撞后裂了缝
永远都不会懂什么叫认错
还想爱却调头放手
心疼你是颗会痛的石头
想要抱住你却混乱沉默
倔强的表情里闪过了失落
你的泪让我痛

playing with mr jet

2009-07-19T15:53:00.017+08:00

still trying getting use to Mr Jet

&
PEOPLE, stop sending mesasge & call my previous number!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH-Y!
With TK after Cass left =(Before womanizer left for KLDem's princess having break.Baby ah swang listening to pa pa ah swang.They not happy because I took their photo.Pimple.On nightHe's tire.Field teamWhat's in his mind?Volunteered model.=)=PWhile waiting for bus..

helpless

2009-07-19T15:32:00.001+08:00

I can feel my extremities cold,
muscles tensing up,
tears on the edge...

Well, life still goes on...

samsung jet

2009-07-17T03:01:00.001+08:00

Say hi to my Mr Jet...& gotta go buy screen protector & memory card tomorrow.

white rose

2009-07-14T22:24:00.004+08:00

I am in love with white rose.SUDDENLY.

Don't know why...I feel like losing faith in love after he left.
Don't want to put too much hopes.
Hopes=disappointment.

What is my dream wedding?
A simple exchange ring ceremony in a small garden with people's blissing.

But will I find my real man?

baby

2009-07-14T19:19:00.000+08:00

Someone got this for me yesterday.

don't want to stay at home

2009-07-11T17:24:00.005+08:00

I am so BLUR.

I thought the JUMP play is today until joo told me this morning that it is in September.
I thought I will like some cranky old granny that stay at home and the endless dvd for last night.
But.
Yes,
BUT
I went to jaclyn's bbq =)
after baby ah swang told me the very morning during shift.
And so after the bbq, I went late night movie with TK.
Waste of money...
because most of the time I hide under his red jacket because it is a horror movie.
Whatever, the effect is so creepy.
Walked out of cinema still have this scary feeling in heart.
Few days ago, was watching some movie shown in channe;.Actually, I watched thrice but I still watched.

The theme song not bad.

And I returned to my usual life by listening radio on bus instead of sticking to ipop.Heard this nice song by demi lovato.

sober

2009-07-09T09:12:00.003+08:00

I am so sad on tuesday...that I called and message him.

I don't mean to message him.
I really want to let him go freely without any burdens and worries.
Last night went pub with pei pei & friends at neil road.
& you know,
I always love to play this game with pei pei.
Result?
one came up hestiation & the other is he is just playing on me.
Hestiation = no ending.
He's the one made the first move & yet left hestiation.
Funny...if you think you can't make a decision then don't get into the game.Hurt people's feelings.
The other one shown up only one time & showed I am still the one giving.
Although Peipei kept saying I still love him, the fact is he's in my heart and always on my mind.Is not that kind of love but more on friendship.
I messaged the secret again last night when I am back home.In the state of sobering...I wondered if he read my message.
Want to know?
ok,
6 words, 16 letters...love the way you love me when I know your heart is with me.
Pei pei said she feel like puking when all these kind of "love love" came out from my mouth.
Do I really have the face of joker?
Do I really look that unserious?
Do I really look like your somebody?
Do I really look like a player?
Hai~

I am so tire

2009-07-07T01:28:00.002+08:00

I am so tire...after uploading photos to various website for my 21st birthday.
Today is a very "lucky" day.
I was at ward 1 again.-_-"'
Slacking and fb-ing.
And then the shit-est thing happened.
I stained my whole pant.
As I was all alone in ward 1, no one is there to replace me.
In the end, I managed to get some replacement.
Now, I am having running nose...

Anyway, thanks everyone who wishes me from their bottom of their heart.

I want to write a letter to the person in my bottom of my heart but I am too tire now.

21 years and 1 day old

2009-07-05T04:28:00.003+08:00

I had not been sleeping properly for the past 24hours.
I missed the secret in my bottom of heart and suddenly think of it when walking home after kakoke session.
Hopefully, it will be only for a short period of time.
But I am happy that I contacted a MIA friend recently and the message he sent me is really sweet.
Shall upload ph0tos tomorrow ZZzzzZZZ

21st= 1

2009-07-04T08:14:00.002+08:00

Guess what?

Last night was damn fun!

Except for the fact that someone thought I lesbian.

And I kissed a girl...lip tp lip, tongue to tongue.

Taste like the same.

Not much different but the mouth is smaller compared to a guy =P

=)

2009-07-03T07:21:00.002+08:00

Actually I already can feel it.
Your determine is so strong that I can't do anything but to follow your instruction.
I already prepare myself for this but I do sad as I refuse to accept.
This time I only told two friend that I am so sad, not including the one who saw your message.
First friend I called is someone who knew us.
I called her, told her everything how I feel.
She analysised the situation for me.
I feel better after ranting out all my pain.
Second friend...
It's because I am looking for someone that come immediately to my mind.
Maybe after all these day, I realized the guys around me all come and go with a motive.
But that person come immediately to my mind, do not lie to me at all.

Tomorrow I will be 21.
There's a chinese proverb and it's goes like this "不经一事，不长一智。"
"You can't know about something unless you experience it; wisdom comes from experience".
I treat everything as learning experience to make me strong.
This is not the first time it hurt so much.
Pain score of 10; I rate it as 7-8.
Everyone asked me why I go and cut my hair.
I always wanted it short but you really gave me the force to cut it.
Anyway, everyone said it's nice =)
I asked my mum to get me a ring because I want to be committed to something.And the only thing I can committed now is my family.
21 should able to think wiser.
Differiate right and wrong.
Know who is really sincere.
My next breakthrough shall be tattooing.
Tattooing may sound a turnoff but it's always one of the thing in my wishlist.
I have think about it for a long long time.
Tattoo is forever...so I will need to find a unique one to ink over my body.
After that I will go photoshoot.
To get my most beautiful side being show on picture.

don't know how to describe

2009-07-01T02:07:00.000+08:00

The answer I got it.
Surprise?

Maybe.

聼你們的話

2009-06-30T09:33:00.006+08:00

I cut away my hair so that it won't tangle when I take pat pat's bike home.

Friend #1
Hey sha sha de,
dun too upset.
U always have me ok.
I will nv leave u.
Although i may not be always there beside u, u always in my heart n i always in ur heart.
So dun feel alone. Dun worry, u will find ur mr right.

Friend#2
life is great!sun is going to be bright!
life is going towards the light!
and you will see the light, if you set it in front of you! :)

Friend #3
Just leave everything aside.
If he really loves you, he will contact you.
Sleep after you finished crying.

Friend #4
Don't call him anymore.
You guys just met at the wrong timing.
Don't believe too much in what guys say.
And you cannot give in all times.
Go home, study, then sleep.

Friend#5
Maybe he is just too lonely inside.So he texted such messages to you.
When he's outside, he won't feel like that.
If he really loves you, he won't do all this if he knows it gonna hurt you.
For such person, just forget him and get a life.

Friend#6
Babe! Hang in there, Brace up to a better life though I know it's gonna be tough. Let's meet soon! Don't wallow in self pity. You have my shoulders =)

Friend#7
sad story??? u dun look sad lor... dun be sad wor...
btw ur not suppose to be... u are miss Joy lei... Joy=Happy

I will lead a happy life...that's my motto of my life.
Anyway, I am not lacking of suitors either xp
Pain is what you bought to me; I will forgive but never forget what you did.

please

2009-06-28T21:31:00.002+08:00

2 weeks of hopes, waiting...
in exchange is your mia.
I can't take it.
You say you love me,
but why you left without a note,call, message?
You say you can't take it if I leave you.
But what about me?
I rather everyone call me bitch, slut...
I also choose to be yours.
This is a slience promise, action;
don't you know?
Yet, you choose to left me with disapppointment...
I put on a happy mask in front of everyone,
but who knows my sorrow?
Everyone thinks it's look stupid and it doesn't last,
but I choose to believe.
Everyone disapprove what I did,
but I still choose to believe in you,
yet...

失蹤

2009-06-27T01:26:00.001+08:00

爲什麽大家都愛玩失蹤？
我喜歡
但
沒勇氣。

a round @ bugis

2009-06-18T00:11:00.003+08:00

Oh my god...

My face can only use one word to describe.
"CHUI".
The effect for using wrong mosturizer.
Went some chee-na resturant to eat.Hey,next time we go eat sha bu sha bu...Cam-whoring...The bowl looked so big that it looked like those old school loo-seat for kids.Pink whip cream...just nice to describe my feeling...in love...
Heart-to heart talk at my void-deck before bidding.

=寻找幸福记录=

let's move on

I have too many wishes..

long time never blog...

halloween

hair management

I miss you bb

la trobe

busy

lao sai

luv

4 months

some thoughs

it's been a long time...

I am so tire!

my baby

1 month + 22 days

the year of tiger

twitter

My pet cat

my sweetest revenge

sighs

xp

bitch, am I?

<3

getting my nerves!

=)

a fast recovery or a short distraction?

if you even bother

你愛我太美好

ismail

Joy

1:51amIsumairu

1:52amJoy

1:52amIsumairu

心情不好

I must be very very strong

My extended tattoo

只有失去的擁有 最永久

為愛犯賤

shh

朋友

想念某某人

I am not hungry at all

screwed

crying like a baby...

fever

misses..

there's such a saying

什麽東東嗎！

eat alot...

fool

要是sorry能讓你不難過

=(

不被重視

some sort of emo...

filled with joy

謝謝

yoz!

一切太快，讓人擔心

I don't want to go back to work!

wait...

I am a lucky star

思戀

red carpet night

hai~~

coco before chanel

收到你的信已經太遲

shh

I will wish you all the best

#885

love slave

life's a rollercoaster

希望成空；眼變失望。

cry

being a big fat extra

not happy lah

蠢蛋

miscommunication

=)

只有失去的擁有最永久