misses the art of kissing...

Don't know hear from where...
"Friends admire my freedom yet, they returned back to their comfort zone at night".
Well,
as what I mention;
freedom does fun but there's a price to pay.

什麽東東嗎？！
我到底算什麽？
他媽的！
一群腦袋裝大便的臭男人！
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was chatting with annie few nights ago...
agreed this saying,
"no matter how much disagreements between each other, be a pillar when he/she needs you as a friend"
but normally, reality don't reflect what it says.
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It's tiring to report work after dancing 5 hours non-stop.
& I am kinda of look upon myself that I can stand it...for going clubbing after afternoon shift and went straight to work after club.

Woke up after 12 hours of sleep.
Ate waraku set meal, which consist of 1 soup, 1 ice tea, 1 pasta, 1 baked rice.
Then head down to changing appeptite to have waffles.
Went to jello to drink whisky.
Then had bak tuk teh for supper.
What a great mission then!
mauhah

I am fool.

I betrayed my motto.

"rather be a fool than leading an unhappy life"

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I just push a very good guy, who promise me to love me like god, out of my life.

u wait ah
i think how to tell u first
haha
wait ah
ok
i dont know how to put this thru the appropriate way
but i see ur fb n everything
i find that u have alot of frens
n uve been like clubbing n it's always clubbing fotos i always see
i nvr say it's wrong to club
but the thing is that
hmm
hw to put it
i seldom meet u
cuz maybe sometimes we both busy
im still abit pissed that u put aeroplane the last time we intended to meet up
n u met up with eddy instead
i know there's a certain reason behind that
but u know what?
i find myself not knowing u so well after all
u seemed so far away..
not the old xz i know already
i have no confidence to say that i know u anymore
i feel u are drifting away from me already
i feel that ur clubbing frens now are more impt then me..
i duno what my placement is in ur heart..
but to me
u r a very important fren
someone that's with me thru sec sch... sharing ups n downs tgt..
but now..
when u have troubles.. u dun approach me anymore
i feel ur frens out there know u better den i do..
i mean i know it's not neccesary dat i need to know EVERYTHING that u do..
but it seems i know nothing about u now..
rly nothing..
i dont know who u are. what u are doing anymore...
im sad..
i know u are feeling emo..
but the thing is
i dont know how i can help u..
because i dont know u well now...
i feel helpless...
u understand what im trying to put thru here?
im not blaming u or anything.. it's just that..
maybe someth or somewhat.. situations happened that cause this kind of things to happen
dat we r drifting apart or someth
the point im putting thru is, i wanna be someone useful to u
someone that u can have a support on whenever u are down..

but i dont find myself that useful anymore, becuz frens out there have been ur pillar of support rather than i am


bcuz if u rly wanna tell me U WILL TELL
thats becuz u dun feel like telling me
thats why u didnt
u know we have no truth to hide between us
u jolly well know that
but i understand why sometimes
there's always secrets that we will hide, so i nvr blame u at all
im jus voicing out
becuz everytime i see u emo, i feel like crying
n i dun dare to ask
becuz im scared u wudnt wanna tell m

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My BFF's confession.
Touched until I felt my cheeks are wet..
Thanks,
I love you!
Seriously,
I am sad because I care...

Today is a raining day.
The weather is cold.
It has made both my feets and hands cold...
&
my heart is also being injected with a syringe of mint...