Thanks for comforting a uneasy soul.
Yes, I am scare.
I am scare you will leave me.
I thought the last sentence has established...but it hasn't.
Pardon me, to be so fearful even though I didn't show.
Is not that I don't want to be with you but I always has a feeling I am just an extra that popped up from somewhere in this small tiny dot on earth.
My mindset is telling me I don't deserve any happiness.
I fear even if I snatch, you will leave me, brutally hurt internally.
I cannot accept anymore.
My heart cannot take it.
I will admit for depression.
I cannot sleep alone at night.
I will fear of love.
I will not like boy boy anymore.
***
I can empathy how you feels when you call me.
I feel bad...to cause such misfortune on you.
Should I leave?
I ask myself.
But why should I be so selfish to you & me?
You say you want to be single.
I don't mind.
SERIOUSLY.
Boyfriend, girlfriend is just a staus.
If I have a status but I don't deserve what a girlfriend have, will I be happy?
After all, I don't even expect anything from you.
But you really dote me.
The moment I went inside to change back my clothes and I heard the sound of the cash register, I know you bought the top.
Isn't it sweet enough to melt my heart away?
& the time you spend on just waiting for me to do my hair, buy food and drink while I nearly fell asleep while doing my hair.
& fufil the mission to stop my craving for my xiao long bao.
Most importantly,
those words I told you in your ears with a promise seal at night
all these are enough to drive me to make you happy.
***
B, thanks for the everything.
You are the best gift from somewhere up there in 2010
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