Happy halloween!

Have a great scare at night safari but hate the waiting time!

I miss you..bb

After being hugged by you in sleep for last two night

When you helped me carry my super heavy medical surgical book and lappy

When you helped me carry your table to your room for my to study

when you looked at me silently as I rushed through my assignment

when I become so panic because I cannot hand in my assignment and you took your mobile modem and just solve the problem in patience

Bb, I miss you...

Hmm, should I cut my fridge??

Finally started my degree course.
Stress?
Of course!
Adult teaching which means you have to be more hardworking.
So far, I really feel damn sian about about it because I realize alot of things I don't even know.
No wonder, they say it's better you went for advanced dip before you go degree.
But sister don't want to send :x
How sia?
Friday assessment but I just don't feel like revising.
SUCKS BIG time.
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Happy anniversary to my beloved B!
8 months being together with Love, tears, sweats...
See you in Bali.
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Work is no better than before.
It seem like working everyday.
Feel so breathless...
Everyday seeing the demanding patient will makes you die faster.
It's not that being demanding is no good.
But do consider those who came in even earlier before you.
The way you rush us won't make better anyway.

I am tire.

Killing brain cells by brainstorming is more tiring than nursing a patient.

& my xiao hong mei mei also come...

To add salt to wound,

I was suffering from diarrhea...

But I am glad that I have you to hug me.

Thanks!

He is simply so sweet!
Specially went to toa payoh to buy KOI for me.
Helps me massage my tire feets.
Wait for me until 10pm because I fell asleep just to have dinenr with me!
<3

Today marked the 4 months anniversary of us!

I am glad to have you in my life.

Brother...my only brother, has gone to serve the national for coming five days.I wonder how is he now?Turn more muscular?Able to cope with trainning?Able to sleep without air-con?
Planned to go bali next week but was cancelled due to bills...but there will be a next time...
I miss my bb...was happy to hear his voice everyday.
Tomorrow?hopefully is a good good day

It's been a long time since I last blogged.

Went to hongkong recently with BB zai.Not really that enjoying because we lose money and were living like poor at there.

I had cut down clubbing because bb zai don't like and will get super anxious when I go clubbing even he says he will still let me go because I likes to club

Yesterday, I saw momoren at bus stop with his girlfriend.I just take a seat and pretend I never see him.It's not nice to go up and say hi since her girlfriend is around and pretend nothing happen before.Although it is past and I have BB, but I think I shouldn't make both of us such embarrassed since we don't even contact each other.

Today, just back from sending my brother to tekong.It has been a long time since my family go out together as one big whole.

I am so tire now...need to doze off...night shift..

Last night I slept at 10 plus and this morning after back home at 7 plus, I slept all the way till 1.30pm!

This is the second time...I have slept until so relax.Hopefully after moving to yishun, I will get better!
Last but not least, introducing that toy dog!

I love the way you cuddle me.

I love the way you slowly tuck into the blanket and lie beside me carefully, fearing that will wake me up.

Yes, I am missing you.Can you feel that?

It's like looking at a bud slowly grows...

1st, the root & then the leaf...

How I wish...

I can see flowers grow...

like how sakura open confidently in spring.

& so the fruits...

like those farmers in the rice plots cutting their harvest.

Thanks for the everything.

Though arguments do arise,

but it just strengthen the small little plant, which acts as a fertilizer.

I am forgetful but I do remember your sincerity & loves.

Well, back at home.

Hopefully the presents will brighten up your day!

Anyway, happy CNY and V-day.

To my da lian,

actually, you deserve a better guy who dote you more! xp

Luckily, you haven't give him the present!

Break up do sad but I know you are a strong girl!

Don't worry, xiao lian will lend a shoulder if you want!

P.S How come I keep burping?

My sweetest revenge is to live better than in past.
& proven;
with happy stamp on it.
I really love when you walked me home, holding my hands.
Though we joked all the way,
serious all the way sometimes.
I felt that moment is the best.

Thanks for comforting a uneasy soul.
Yes, I am scare.
I am scare you will leave me.
I thought the last sentence has established...but it hasn't.
Pardon me, to be so fearful even though I didn't show.
Is not that I don't want to be with you but I always has a feeling I am just an extra that popped up from somewhere in this small tiny dot on earth.
My mindset is telling me I don't deserve any happiness.
I fear even if I snatch, you will leave me, brutally hurt internally.
I cannot accept anymore.
My heart cannot take it.
I will admit for depression.
I cannot sleep alone at night.
I will fear of love.
I will not like boy boy anymore.
***
I can empathy how you feels when you call me.
I feel bad...to cause such misfortune on you.
Should I leave?
I ask myself.
But why should I be so selfish to you & me?
You say you want to be single.
I don't mind.
SERIOUSLY.
Boyfriend, girlfriend is just a staus.
If I have a status but I don't deserve what a girlfriend have, will I be happy?
After all, I don't even expect anything from you.
But you really dote me.
The moment I went inside to change back my clothes and I heard the sound of the cash register, I know you bought the top.
Isn't it sweet enough to melt my heart away?
& the time you spend on just waiting for me to do my hair, buy food and drink while I nearly fell asleep while doing my hair.
& fufil the mission to stop my craving for my xiao long bao.
Most importantly,
those words I told you in your ears with a promise seal at night
all these are enough to drive me to make you happy.
***
B, thanks for the everything.
You are the best gift from somewhere up there in 2010

Why do I feel abit relief when he told me that he already confessed to his girlfriend that he had already fall in love with another girl?
I am worried about him but my heart just feel so happy about it...
Sometimes, I just feel that I am such a bitch...
Oh my god!
Shall face the wall and repent on own mistakes...

I am contented.
To be with you... in the dark.
I believe what you say...because you haven't lie to me at all.
Even as a friend,
I don't mind.
Because it's hard to be with someone you love and he loves you, cherishes you every moment, every second.