--:: Tan Xiang Zhou ::--

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

You said you want to woo me.
But you don't message, call me.
Is not that I wanted you to sms me every second, every minute what you did.
But, when you are free,
just drop me a missing me message will brighten my day.
But...what can I do?
I consult my guy friend.
He said this too.
Not putting high hopes but still fear of disappointment.
Don't like people to lie or cheat me.
What's the most memorable stuff in 2009?
To meet that guy that I fall deeply into.
Even we are not together.
I will still want you to be good even without me.


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 3:13 AM

Monday, December 28, 2009

Feeling so happy that you said you are not interested in other girls after meeting me.
But will it last?
But...I am happy...so who cares will it last...


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 4:09 AM

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Today, I just feel so much better.
I don't miss my monster so much as yesterday.Even there is, I am no longer feeling sad.
Maybe it's an enlightenment after being console by my smoking khaki.
I was analying why it turn out like that.
One conclusion is
because that day when I really break down, I told you that you are not the first person that I want to see immediately.
Eventually, it lead to lose of confident, trust...which is so much so much needed in a relationship.
I believe that day when you say you wanted to woo me is real.
I believe...because if you are not, you won't message me to prove how important I am to you(at that point of time) when I said give up on me, stop fooling me.
The paper heart you gave to me is still in my chanel wallet.
Well, the most ugly heart I received but seem like it's the more precious.
I prefer to be that 傻傻的默默靜靜地想念某某人。
Even if he has a girlfriend, but I still want to miss him because he is the one that I loves the most.
Monster is like the pirated version of him.
某某人's birthday is june 9th and his on june 7th.
Both of them know how to style.(The most important thing that I am so crazy about).
Both of them has sense of humour.
Both of them are like big flirt.
Both of them called me baby.
Both of them have thick thick eyebrow.
Both of them do not start a relationship with me.
Both of them first saw me is like out of the sudden.
But monster is much more skinny.
Monster has tattoo.
Monster is more hairy.
Monster smoke winston.
Monster is from melayu country.
didn't mind I have boyfriend.
always talked to me until wee hours.
smoke marlbolo medium.
always piggyback me from his voiddeck to his house.
look most sexy in his singlet.
way of waking up me is so heart-warming.
didn't mind about my past.
his zara cardi is the most comfortable.
will let me sit on his lap while he use his computer and I just stare and admire him.
actually, I don't hate both of them.
Because it's 某某人 taught me how to love someone deeply even if he doesn't have a future with you.
we are trying things out.
Maybe we are just two lonely creatures on earth that just need each other accompany.
But I do have feeling for him...
if not I won't cry for him for two nights and my eyes are so swollen.
Enough of the craps.I am a FB addict, need to use FB now.
Tomorrow I am morning shift...need to wake up the time when people finish partying.
Now, I already started to feel sleepy...but if I sleep now, I can't sleep later.


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 6:46 PM

Saturday, December 26, 2009

If you bother,
you will at least call or message me once in a day.
you will not give me empty promise.
you will not push me away.

you will know this blog do exists.

you will know

I wanted to say


but you never know

because you are not putting enough effort.


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 1:55 AM

Friday, December 25, 2009

Last night,
I went double O.
I remember my countdown for xmas is outside O bar because I am quening to go in.
I remember I got 6 shots and 3 bombshell.
I remember I ran toward some unknown people for cigarette.
I remember out of them, got this girl whose name is strawberry pocky.
I remember I was dancing like a mad woman.
I remember I kept scolding vulgaries.
I remember I dropped my wallet, my handphone once.
I remember my talking style is super daring kind.
I remember the last person I dance with has a name call shuan.
I remember I call one of my guy friend, telling him that I am dead.
I remember I was eating ba tuk teh, drinking my favourite apple soda.
I remember I went back home with lingz and friend.
I remember I cried in the cab, thinking about that guy that I once was in love with, so deeply.
I remember the cab driver passed me tissue paper and lingz was wiping my tears.
I remember that guy, I am interested in like now, called and said he took panadol with beer.
I remember I was msn him using my phone.
I remember he said he will sms me but I falling asleep in lingz's house and nothing was there when I woke up.
I remember I need to work today.
& yes, merry xmas, I am working today.

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=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 10:02 AM

Monday, December 21, 2009



becoz of such guys

lao niang so scare of luv<3


lol... lao niang... u dun have to be scared... just have to be extra careful...

must do homework... CSI!!!



thanks mail~


most importantly must be strong... have confidence in yourself...

dun let anyone take advantage...

It's all because of your guys' encouragment, life's so beautiful!

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=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 1:52 AM

Sunday, December 20, 2009

I don't know why.
I already stay at home the whole day but my dad just came back home and shaked his head.
Everything seem too good to be real.
I am scared it's just my silly thoughts.
Anyway, I am so so so happppyyy to get my chanel wallet!


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 4:36 PM

Saturday, December 19, 2009

I shall not let emo-ness as an excuse to touch cigarette.
Why I started in the first place?
Because I want to get closer to you emotionally.
Yes, you attracted me to have the urge to smoke.
Even you left long ago.
KPP said I am very brave to love someone who no longer love me.
Jiemei said I am stupid.
But the truth is,
I really enjoy loving you, from a small position.
So, no more cigarette but ice cream and lemon slice.
I shall do housework to kill boredom.
Today I surf the net for afternoon.
Then I went to sleep.
& I woke up,
The problem still existes,
no sense of accomplishment.
I shall not let clubbing to be a solution to kill stress.
Clubbing should be happy but not sad as a result.
I shall excerise to kill all stress.


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 12:23 AM

Friday, December 18, 2009

Went to extend my tattoo in JB.Now, it's not as plain as what it is as before.
Many people asked whether is it painful.
But the real pain is not physically.
The real pain is emotionally, mentally.


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 5:15 PM

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

My heart is aching.
You can't replace him.
So ya...

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=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 3:34 AM

Monday, December 14, 2009

Have you move out of my heart?
Did I ever move into yours before?


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 5:55 AM

Friday, December 11, 2009

I miss the feeling that someone will come and fetch me when I come back.
no offence!

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=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 2:40 AM

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Your hand,
consoling the insecure soul of mine.
But what I need is not your sympathay,
Don't make me misunderstand...


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 10:01 PM

Saturday, December 05, 2009

These few days...
when I woke up from nap;
especially in the late night,
I will miss you madly.



=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 7:00 AM

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Meant to find food with some idiots but was put plane.
& all thanks to him,
I was fasted ever since my mac breakfast at 7am.
I am not hungry at all.
I also have no mood for food now.


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 5:11 AM

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

You really screwed my day.
Loving you can be so sweet & yet so bitter.
Once, I told myself...
you are not worth for me to love...
but speaking is always easier than actions.
You don't care, why should I be piss about?
When will I totally give up on you?
Seeing you,
super +++
But I have to be normal in front of you.
You know my uneasiness but you can't do anything now.
Or you don't even bother at all..


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 11:26 PM

You don't have to appear to remind me how much I love you.
Your appearance make me tachycardiac,
my fingers shivering...
the tears don't stop...

But you give me the courage to let sheer bliss go.

as usual,
you are not there for me.

Glen, you don't need to feel guilty, I don't need anything from either.I must abide the rules of love games.
& especially thanks to my smoking khaki,
even your remarks are super sacratic,
I have a great laugh...


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 1:08 AM

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Down with fever;
feel like the world is crashing....


=BeAutIful FrIghter=
fights till the end...@ 2:54 AM
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